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Laurie Gough's avatar

What an incredible story! I was completely riveted. And I love all the layers. Your class will be such a revelation to so many writers no matter how long they’ve been writing. After reading this I have a strong desire to see what Mark looked like!

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Messaging you a photo...

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Karen Gordon's avatar

So poignant and beautiful! I love this.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Oh, thank you!

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kate angus's avatar

I love this essay but damn it brought me back to that era. I miss you. xox

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Do you love it because you're in it?

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kate angus's avatar

That's not the only reason! And, anyway, you forgot to describe how stunningly beautiful I was as I told you that.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

And the way your breasts heaved.

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kate angus's avatar

yes, my gigantic breasts! the largest in all of the East Village.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

They could not be contained. They had to pay rent.

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kate angus's avatar

They didn't even fit in your apartment.

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Ted Travelstead's avatar

A terrible experience delivered in excellent prose. Thanks for sharing. I remember Blue and Gold, and Veselka!

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Blue and Gold was the best.

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Shoumi Barua's avatar

Diana, what a crazy story! I'm sorry you had to surrender the East Village to Mark, there's much to love about that neighborhood (Blue and Gold is still there, it's still exactly as you've described it). Loved the Gatsby tie ins, I never thought of him as Daisy's stalker, but I think that means I need to revisit it with my adult brain. Will do that soon.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Shoumi! Thank you! And I’m thrilled that Blue and Gold has survived. ❤️

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Greg Williams's avatar

This is a genius essay. A great piece of can art makes me nostalgic for something I never experienced, but in this case I was a little bit in the mix.

I remember talking about your stalker in that tequila bar, back when there were still a few holes in the internet. If I remember correctly, armed security guard Jack was ready to battle.

I think of Gatsby whenever a stranger asks me for directions: "He had casually conferred on me the freedom of the neighborhood." And on certain late spring days, "that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer."

Maybe because of the urgency of skill of the first person narration, Gatsby works on Audible. Clyde and I listened to it over the course of a few drives. He was really into it, discussing everyone's motivations. Couldn't stand Tom. Wasn't sure about Daisy. Sympathized with Gatsby.

Really enjoyed this piece.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

You turned Clyde on to Gatsby! He’s so lucky to have you.

You were absolutely in the mix back then. I don’t remember Jack. So weird what we keep and what we lose.

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Alex M. Stein's avatar

What a great essay! Thank you for this.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Oh, thank you, Alex!

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Courtney Ng's avatar

The combo of this story, the Great Gatsby, the NYC backdrop is all so powerful. Thank you for writing this, and I am so sorry you had to experience this.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Thank you, Courtney! Honestly, it was so long ago, I don’t even mind anymore that I experienced it. It was sort of my NYC rite of passage. I learned never to talk to my neighbors, ha!

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Rhonda Schmidt's avatar

Even though you were stalked and threatened, I could feel the early days of east village and the exciting feel of New York. I wish I had experienced sitting on the rooftop drinking with anyone:)

I love the great Gatsby so much I will reread it. Fabulous essay. Thx for sharing

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Thank you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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James Ron's avatar

Amazing story.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Thank you.

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yes.mor's avatar

Wow, that was enthralling. I really liked this line, "The neighbors hurrying by must have wondered, Who are these crazy people? Why do their lives so disappoint them that they need to create their own theater?"

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Oh, thank you! Apartment living is so weird. So many neighbors with a front seat to the show.

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Natalie Posgate's avatar

All these times we’ve marveled over Baby Reindeer and I had no idea how close to home it hit for you.

This is so not okay, but a gorgeous essay.

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MerriLee Anderson's avatar

Wow! Loved the whole essay, but this line is spectacular!

"Death is consistently surprising, even though it's the least surprising thing a person can do."

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Audrey Herrin's avatar

Wow this is so good! I have a similar past experience that I've been trying to write about for a while, but it always comes out wrong. I hope I'll be able to write about it half this well someday!

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Oh, thank you so much, Audrey. I look forward to reading your essay when it's done.

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Conni Walkup's avatar

Incredible writing and storytelling--so sad those two gifts don't often exist in the same writer. I was mesmerized. It underscored to me how we, as women, are often victims, not of others so much, but of our own innate kindness. Beautiful and compelling.

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Diana Spechler's avatar

Thank you so much, Conni.

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Sandra Wells's avatar

WOW! Stunning.

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